constantgardner

recovery

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 20:37:33 GMT

in recovery they say that knowing that you made a mistake is one step ahead of making a mistake and NOT knowing. the next step is knowing you are making a mistake even though you do it anyway. the good part comes when you stop yourself before the mistake happens.

GOD

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 18:38:10 GMT

Gift Of Desparation

text spam

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 18:13:07 GMT

it was just text spam! i was so worried about the down that i was willing to give up the possibility of an up. neutral can be good sometimes. i guess that means just don't get on the roller coaster.

text message

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 18:08:24 GMT

i just received a text. i am wondering if i will feel differently after i read it. probably.

hush money

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 17:45:38 GMT

I'm just wondering, if Ted makes it to the Pearly Gates, will he be able to look Mary Jo in the eye? Will her family finally talk? I mean did their financial agreement reach beyond the grave? Surely they wrote something down. After 40 years certainly some sibling or cousin will come forward and say they "accidentally " found the agreement. Or is it like the Sopranos.

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 02:20:46 GMT

la fille est ici

to big daddy

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 14:29:23 GMT

i like it best when you are here. we're sort of like peas and carrots.

Sun, 31 May 2009 02:18:11 GMT

just when you think your day cannot get much worse and you might as well just go to bed because nothing is salvageable, your best guy cooks a steak and cuts it into bite size pieces for you. he picks up the little fondue pieces and dips them into melted cheese and holds them near your mouth. there is no way not to have an important conversation when he is feeding you like a little bird. if it isn't important a first, it becomes so. and it did.

Fri, 29 May 2009 16:48:47 GMT

twitter me this, twitter me that. who's afraid of the big black bat?

Mon, 25 May 2009 01:48:51 GMT

finally stopped crying long enough to reach out to someone in my 12 step program. what better bonding material than pain.

Fri, 22 May 2009 12:06:01 GMT

today i will enjoy some of my gifts.

Thu, 21 May 2009 19:51:34 GMT

My book shall be titled, "I Love You. You Drive Me Crazy".

CoDA

Mon, 11 May 2009 17:55:38 GMT

Let's see. My core feelings today are: pain, joy, and hope. Oh, and I almost forgot, fear.

fear=anxiety

Sat, 09 May 2009 02:40:19 GMT

friends of bill w: meet at terminal C starbucks.

Dear God,
Please grant me the serenity to accept the thing I cannot change, which is you, the courage to change the thing I can, which is me, and the wisdom to know the difference, which is hard.

co dependent speak

Thu, 07 May 2009 00:09:16 GMT

how empty of me to be so full of you

Wed, 06 May 2009 03:25:10 GMT

even now, as i cry, i cannot walk away.

Thu, 30 Apr 2009 12:13:15 GMT

I will pray.

Wed, 29 Apr 2009 15:12:28 GMT

you gotta dance with who brung you

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 19:32:58 GMT

anxiety runs high but you can keep it together

Sat, 25 Apr 2009 23:28:27 GMT

i've been on computer in my sleep again.

Fri, 24 Apr 2009 19:12:02 GMT

Feeling great today for the first time in weeks. No nightmares and the pups let me sleep through the night. Maybe I'm getting somewhere.

she has more important things to think about

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 23:26:58 GMT

had a nightmare that i was getting dressed and discovered that my thighs looked like hillary clinton's!

and i was putting on a pant suit!

Tue, 21 Apr 2009 10:22:14 GMT

let go and let God. it is hard but it helps.

oops there goes another rubber tree plant.... or don't give up

Tue, 21 Apr 2009 01:01:03 GMT

if you let yourself become vulnerable, which is scary, something wonderful happens. others drop their shields and reach out to relate. don't deny them the joy. it just isn't polite.

don't give up

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 23:13:50 GMT

beautiful day. my new resolution is to take a few minutes to enjoy each day like this. today it was pictures with the pups in the wildflowers. lots of endorphins.